Day 82

Dear still sick for the day. . I wanna him to go see doctor but he refused. .

While Im at home, sms him so many times but he didnt reply. :( He only reply me that go praying tml. .

Den I went over to in law's house den. . I saw him sleeping. . He is sick. . But when I went up to him he said he is sick. . I said I pei him to see doctor and he dun wan. . He said he took half daz leave and rest and see how.

Mum said she wanna go to uncle's house and I drove her there. . Son son went out with friend and will go uncle's house directly at Tampines. .

In the end, dear told me he is not going for work. . He still sick. .

I was thinking of coming back to fetch him to see doctor. . But elder still dun wanna go home. . Den I pei her to an aunty's house den to downstair walk walk. . After dinner I wanna ciao le. . I neva get to hav any dinner coz Im worry abt dear dear. . Dunno how is he le. .

Dear elder aunt still want me to send her back. . Pengz. .

When I reach in law's house. I pei dear dear to see doctor. . He still havent get his dinner and we buy back home for it. . After tat, son son wanna to go home. . 1st time sia. . I dun really wan to go home but wan to pei dear dear. . Hopefully I can stay at in law house and take care of dear. . He is having LS. . Poor dear!!

But son son keep one chasing me home. . Dear also asked why he wanna go home le. . But dear dare not said out wan me to stay. . In no choice I choose to go home. .

I make a angry face of the kids. . Drove fast home. . Neva talk to them . .

Sian. . den I fall aslp after tat. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 81

Todaz I drive to work. . Coz tat Wednesday dear drove but the coupon neva tear fully. . So todaz will be the last day of Jan tat I can use it. .

We drove out to have lunch during lunch time. . Lunch Khaki compensate me some $$ for the coupon . . We went for Ajisen. .

I jio dear for movie and he said okie. . *wink* Den we watch "Wedding games". So so nia le the show. .

Evening time we went to Dua Pek Gong to pray. Tot can pray the "Tai Sui" as well but only can pray during 8am to 4.30pm nia. Sian. .

After tat we send parent in law back home and dear said wanna go for supper. . At first we wanna to eat prawn noodle but it is not open, haiz. . Den we went to Tamp 802 to hav mee instead. . Den we rush for movie. .

I hav a great time with dear on tat nitz. . Thanks dear. .

But however, when dear send me home, I asked him to stay for the nitz but he refuse. . Sigh!!

Wat a lonely nitz for me. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 80

Back to work todaz. . Abit sian after a long break. . Also tire coz last nitz play mahjong till very late. .

Dear not working todaz coz he is sick . .

Went to in law house after work. . Nothing much todaz to blog. . After tat home sweet home. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 79

Todaz is CNY Day 3. . On leave todaz. . But last nitz help out till very late. . So tire. .

Dear send me home after tat but he refuse to stay at home. .

Kids are at mum's house coz last nitz me went home late..

I asked dear wat time going to pray but den he said parent in law are not around le. . Den we went for having bf together. .

Afternoon we play mahjong with parent in law. . Till very late too . .Haaha. . But we quite enjoy. . I won $$ too. .

And again dear send me home. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 78 A VERY VERY HAPPY DAZ WITH HUBBY

Siao arr. . Last nitz super tire. . A lot of things to do. . and also need to entertain mama to play mahjong. . We play and laugh like hell. . So funny sia. . After the issue, think todaz will be my most happy daz. .

Den, after dinner, I suddenly fall asleep in the room. . Too tire liao. . Den ming ming asked to send him to Tampines. . So me and dear dear send him there. . Den dear go home with me to pack mine and kid's clothes. . Den back to mama's house again. . All ciao when we're home. . Saw mama again clean the house by her own. . No one help. . So pity her. . So I helped her to tidy up before I go for my bath. . Dear inside mum's room watch tv until he also fall asleep. . Den mum asked him to go back to room and slp. Alan slp super early sia. . Think she also cannot stand it liao..haaha..

Surprisingly dear come into Ming's room to slp. . I asked him to slp on top of the bed while I slp on the floor. . At tat time I still watching tv show. . When the show was over, I cover the blanket for him and he suddenly wake up and I asked him to slp. . Den he pull my hand. . Den I try to lie down beside him. . He neva rejected me. . And yet show that he is okie and started to hugz me. . And den we. . . . . . . (cannot say here la)

He asked me, if we do it and he didn't go home with me, will I be not happy. And I replied him "nope"

Den. . Nitz nitz. . I guess Im the most happy gal in this world last nitz. . I can felt at least right now he had started to accept me. All my efforts are shown to him. .

Wake up at abt 9am, I bath. . den pack my things just in case todaz got lotsa of ppl here and mum got to cook for them. . I got to help her. .

Ming ming said his stomach pain, and we send him to see doctor. . He kena food poisoning. Poor thing . . Cost him $85 coz todaz is cny mah, he somemore got injection.

Back home and we start to cook. . This and tat. . Relatives came and they praise me such a good gal todaz sia. . and also comments I've slim down. . Relatives also started to like me alot. . Unlike last time. . Think im young tat times and maybe they think I like to show temper. .

Alright. . Got to ciao and help mama again. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 77

I woke up at 7plus. . Den I went for my bath as dad saying that we need to go and pray ah ma at abt 9plus. . And den last nitz I've forgotten to bring over kids' clothes. .

I wake them up at 9plus. . They blur blur..haha..

Todaz is the very 1st daz of cny. . Altot it is a brand new year but somehow I felt the bad daz are coming to me. . Coz this year those Goat is the most bad in Cow year. .

We went to ah ma's house to pray. . Den I told dear tat I havent go home yet le. . Den he tell dad tat we are going over and we proceed to it. At there I called to Cousin William and he wants us there but dear refused to go. . And we end up both of us not happy to each other.

We talk at downstair. . I cried. I even show my temper at my dad's home. After the talk, result is still the same. . I dunno wat worry abt my dear. . He just couldnt accept me right now. . He could not said he dun hav me in his heart anymore. . I can feel that he still love me. . He just cant accept me right now. .

We proceed to Pasir Ris again to fetch the rest of ppl to mama's house. . Currently im tire. . But still got to entertain ppl and help mama. .

Shall stop blogging now. . Think got to rest a while b4 mama called me le. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 76

Im so happy last nitz coz dear turned up for dinner. . Even if it is just a while and during his stay at home and we didnt talk. . but still im indeed happy enough . . Dun really have time to blog much coz got lotsa of things to prepare for cny . . After they have gone for the daz I still got plenty of houseworks to be done. . Hmm..Im still sick . . *cry*

This early morning, I wake up quite and make a phone call to mum whether is she busy and need my help. . And I noticed tat no one was helping her to do the cooking for praying. . I called dear and requested him to help me to buy ctn drink and orange. . Coz I need to go and help mama. . Before tat son son did asked him to buy le. . Just scare that he will forget. . My dear is always such a forgetful person. .

Dear asked me to go over and he will try to help me. . Den I quickly go and bath and cheong to mama's house. .

I help her do the staffs and praying. . Den go shopped for my drinks and orange. . We went to 2 sheng siong but no more stock. . Den dad drive to bedok interchange shop n save and got it. . I sms dear for not buying le. . And he replied me this "thanks for helping my mum" *happy*

P.S. Dear. . This is my duty to being a daughter in law. . I will of coz do my part and best. .

Neva rest. . Do and do and do . .Finalise dear is back home. . So happy to see him. . Feel wanna hugz him but. .

Dinner time has come. . Neva really talk to dear during in lunch. . He offen went to play games inside the room. . I serve some foods for him.. 2nd times he seen like dun really like it hence I stop. . After dinner and got lotsa of things to clear up . . I do the washing, sweep and mop the floor. . Haiz..

After tat help mama to change the seat cover. . Den got to wait till 12am den pray. . After praying, mama and dad are tire and they slp. . We of coz every year will stay late nitz (shou swee). .

I asked dear wanna go and pump petrol with me mah. . At the same time go and pump air for the tyres. . He said okie..*happy*

After tat he wanna send me home. . I asked him wanna go up and slp for a nitz mah since so late liao. . He refused and said ming ming still wait for him at home. . I asked just for a nitz, im alone. . pls. .

He den said why not I go to mama's house to slp den. . Den we went up to pack my stuffs and he also pack his shirt and shoes and we proceed to mama's house. .

Things of dear left at home is more and more lesser. .

Im tire and wanna to slp. . But I cant bear. . I fall asleep on the floor. . Dear asked me to go sofa and slp but I dun wan. . They went in to play games. . While Im outside sleeping. . I kena bite by mosquito. . I waked up and go onto the room and slp. . Dear neva wan to come in and slp. . He rather slp at another room. . Haiz. . Me altot sleep at abt 2plus. . 4plus I wake up and cant slp anymore. . They play games until 6 plus den turn to sleep. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 75

Todaz has passed of 75 dayz. . I still dunno how long should I have to wait. .

Dear still very demand of not coming. . I hope and wish he will change his mind. . Even if he just here for a simple dinner, I will be happy den. .

Understand tat he was out to work since last nitz 12am till tis morning. . I guess he will just go and buy kids shoes. . He was back only at about 1plus. . Er jie there all also coming. . Dad wan me to go over and pray. . So no choice got to drag myself there. . I asked mei mei to go and asked him is he coming.. He neva talk to her and asked me to go in to room and telling me he will be going to work at 9plus. . Think he dun hav time for tat. . I said just a dinner and wont take up much time. . After dinner u may go and work. . He looks like very hard to make decision..Wat so difficulties there?? He den said he try if he can coz he still havent slp yet. . Tats fine. . I dun wish to go on anymore if I dun stand a single in his heart. .

Well, Im will be busy preparing todaz's dinner. . Hope gods will help me and let my dear dear back to hav a dinner with us. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 74

Nothing to write abt. . Im having fever at 40c. . OMG !!! Im going to die soon. .

I go to town council to make payment and notices that my OCBC bank was in negative position. OMG!! Wat happen again sia. . I remember I got do my budget and money in there will be enough until Mar09. . Asking dear why is tat so and he said he is not so sure and said wanna him to check for me. . I appreciated. . And den he told me is in negative of $16 which is both of us dunno wat going onz. . Sigh!!

Sms dear asking him to send kids back home as I cant even walk . .Dear said fine as long as I felt im okie to take care of them. .

Den I asked him to buy me a pack of instant noodle for my dinner. . He said okie. . But he still at work sia. . So he asked son son to dabao for mi. . Mum in law asked him to bring porridge back for me. So touching that son son come back to take care of me. And Dear said later when he is back he will send mei mei back. .

In the end, only he came. Mei mei was not here. Reason being coz we both are sick . . So nvm just leave her there. . He seen concern abt me. . Stay for a while nia and just left. . He actually wanna to borrow redtimo to buy kids shoes tml but den I told he I might need to use coz I need to buy dinner stuffs. And son son tml also meeting friends. . I asked him to come over for dinner. . But he said he got to work and not free. . Just for a dinner le. . I never asking for too much. . Neva demand him to pray for my Zu Xian also. . Why he cant just space a thought of me?? So sad. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 73

Todaz while working I found myself not tat feeling well. . Think gonna sick le. . OMG. . I went to see doctor and release Im running fever. . :(

Sms dear can he make it to come and fetch me from clinic coz my whole body was shaking and he called me saying he cant coz he still at work . .

No choice. . I dragged myself back to in law house. . Den I notices tat son son also fall sick. He also having fever. . omg. . Wat happen sia. .

In the end, they dun wanna to go home. . And I got to go home alone myself. . Should tell me early mah. . I was so hopeless and helpless when Im sick and no one was there for me. .

Im really very sick now. Got to rest. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 72

Sleep well last nitz. . And early too. .

Called hubby in the morning checking with him is he coming. . And sound tiring when answering the phone and said he had overslept and wont be able to come over. . Pengz. . WTF!!

He still asking did I gave son son $$?? Den I said yup, he said thanks and hang up le. .

Thinking of having mc todaz. . But in the end still come to work. .

Called hubby checked with him whether can he send redtimo for servicing and he said he not free. . Even my housing bill he still not yet pay sia. . WTF!!

After work got to go Bedok and collect my jacket. . Must collect todaz. . Die die got to go . .Dear dun wanna to go with me. No choice. .

Saw dear at home when me goes to mum's house. . After doing my staff I go and fetch mei mei home from tution. . Think dear and ming ming go over too. . But den when he saw me are there. He choose to go and buy things instead. Den. . We proceed home. .

A tire daz. . Its time to slp. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 71

Tot todaz is dear's off daz. . Was asking him to left the opc coupon inside redtimo in the end neva. . Pengz. . If he left it inside the car den I can drive to work todaz. At the same time, lunch time can go bedok to eat and collect my jacket as well. . *angry*

Last nitz supposely dun hav to go in law house to fetch kids, coz mei mei was not feeling well and dun intend to go school todaz. Son son can go by his own den. Den hubby called me and said they got homework to do and dunno how to. Pengz. . No choice got to go over den. . Teached them. .Den gonna said "toot" by father in law. . Sigh. . Coz he said mei mei is having fever why neva give her drink liang tea or see doctor. . Which is I told him. She was not well since last mid nitz. . How to see doctor?? Sunday nitz I still given her drink barley tat I blew. And he said no use. . Haiz.. Hard to please right??

Hubby dun care. . Den I kena scolding for nothing. . KL was telling me, why neva said back to him tat. . I just felt no point la. . Im sided hubby. . am I??

In law are going to airport to fetch Er jie . . So I left mei mei at home with my Alan den. I just bring son son back home . . And again he got no allowance for his daily use. . Haiz. . I really dunno how much I've given to them without and claimed from hubby liao. .

Morning cant really alert so I asked son son to walk to school himself. . I guess im going to fall sick soon. .

Sms to dear see whether he can make it for lunch together mah but he replied saying he is not free and is going out soon. . Dunno where he go. .

The whole daz his hp was off. . Getting angry and tried to many times of calling and sms him. . Son son's teacher was calling and compliant to me abt him. . And I notice that he offen sms. . Tats very costly. .

I warned him and said he cant play any computer games from now onwards. One week play once. . He not happy I hack care.. Becoz I love him and want him to behave well. .

Son son need to collect some more $$ from me again . .*angry* Why he always said not enough $$ for these and tat. .

Late nitz, dear return call to me. I asked where are u the whole daz?? He refused to tell me and changed topic den. I'm not hush to him anyway. . Telling him abt todaz's issue and son son financial. He said he wanna to come over. Den I wait for him. . Den he gave me a call again saying he cant make it and will come tml morning to fetch kids to school as he is working morning shift. . Okie den . .

That abt all for todaz. . Nitz..

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 70

Last nitz mei mei woke up plenty of times saying she got headache and cant sleep. . She cried somemore and I got to sayang her. . Im tire when early in the morning. Tot she still not feeling well and was asking her wanna take a mc todaz but she refused.

Den I send them to school. . While on road. . Son son suddenly praise me saying my driving skills was getting beta since daddy was not ard. . *wink*

Proceed to work with my tireness. Thinking of taking half daz to shop some skin products as my Jean Yip one had all finished up and I dun wish to buy any from them anymore coz it is damn expenses.

Meet Meiling at TM for shopping. . Managed to buy skin products from Keihl's. Costly too but of coz cheaper den Jean Yip.

Home quite early. . Notices dear neva took his barley drink . .*sad* He has forgotten . .Later gonna bring over to in law house for him . .

Oh ya, my jacket is delivered but Im not at home . . Sighh!! Got to go and collect them at Bedok Singpost. .

Hope my daz will be fine thru out the whole daz. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 69

Todaz was daz 69. . Dear was working in afternoon shift.

Son son was not really happy if he is not going out with friends. I was intend to bring them for purchasing cny clothes.

I rang up to dear if he wanna to allow him going. . He asked me to decide. . And giving him warning that no more next time of last min and one month can only go out once.

Den, he was so happy of going out sia. . Mi at home doing some laundry, blew barley this and tat den went out with mei mei at abt 4plus.

We shop a few. . Managed to buy some clothes for kids. . Den we proceed for dinner coz kids said they are hungry. Was so surprised that son son come and help me to carry foods sia, hmm.. he has grow up indeed. . Dear couldnt find son son and gave me a call thru my phone. . Asking is he with me right now and checking where are we etc. .

I couldnt find any parking lot in CS and TM, Den I got to park at nearby HDB. . Sian thingy. .

After that, we proceed to in law house to collect kids school bags and uniform den home sweet home. .

Open the letter box and saw so many letters and bills. . Omg, very broke sia. . Prepared some cheques and gave dear a call wanna him to come over and sign the cheques for me. . I could not sleep hence I watch tv show till midnitz. . Yawn!! Got to sleep le otherwise tml cant wake up le. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 68

Wake up at 7am and prepared to school. . Had a good times with dear dear. . We again laugh, talk, and had breakfast together. .

Quite tire. . After the parent meeting, we went home straight and dear needs to prepare for work.

I went home and do some laundry, prepared kids meal and I fall asleep. .

Den woke up at abt 5pm and think of going for facial. . I proceed to it. Over there, I overheard lotsa of ppl comments I slim down alot sia. . So happy right??

Den come back home and had meal with kids. . Now blogging. . Going to slp soon. . My son son saw my video clip there's a sentence saying "Sleeping beauty". He said: should be "Sleeping Pig le". Haaha. .

Im reporting to dear dear wheneva I go todaz but no reply from him. . Haiz..

Tats all for todaz. . Nitz!!

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 67

Again todaz is Fridaz le. . Another week is gonna over soon. .

Tot todaz is dear leave day, was thinking of asking him to go out and buy some cny stuffs. . As well as kids new clothes. .

Morning was thinking of driving redtimo to work den lunch time can drove to Defu Lane for lunch. . But sighh, dear used up the last pcs of coupon and neva put back . .No coupon to use le, how to drive??

So we take cab there. . Yan drove the rest of the gals there. . We had our lunch happily at Seafood Paradise. . I having meal at there once at Flyer there. . It is not cheap indeed but meal are nice. .

Went straight to in law's house after work. Had my dinner (my favour curry) at in law's house too. . Talk to dear dear a while and he told me he gonna got things to do so not going out. . Sad. . So we proceed home. .

Nothing much to do coz tml still got to wake up early to son son's school. . Nitz!!

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 66

Not much thing for todaz . Wearing new clothes to work. . That is when Bysi sales and we grab it but den till todaz den I wear. .Hoho. .

The rests of the photoshoot pix can be collected. . So happy . . I go home first to do the funds tfr before Fai email me. Becoz I couldn't make it for collection and after that he got assignment. .

As usual, went to in law's house after that . . Dear was playing games when im there. . Just to check with him whether wanna change money for new year la, wanna buy clothes for kids mah la. . etc etc. .

Proceed home at about 8plus. .

So poor thingy, dear got to work nitz shirt daz. .

Im going to rest soon. . Tml still got another daz for work . .

P.S. Missing my dear hubby !!

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 65

One of my guy friend join me for lunch, ytd was dinner but i rejected them. Reason being, I dun want my hubby to misunderstand me again. . As I can see, we actually been trying very hard to patch back again. . And I wanna to let my hubby to noe I wont be hurting him again. .

As usual, morning send kids to school den me to work. .

Crystal msn me tat her partner find my photos are nice and can be audition. One thing is my teeth are too attractive to ppl. . Haaha.. Well, that is my cute impression right?? hoho.. Really hope she can get any assignment for me fast. .

After work, me and Ah min went to Kimage den to Coach to see my wallet. . But, haiz.. not nice le.. In the end I just get a blouse and a belt. Ah min got a jacket. . Happily hor..

I sms dear to help me to send kids home and I shall be back at abt 9plus.. He said okie. . He called me to check on me where am I before he went for work and I told him me was already on my way home. .

I reached home sms him to report im home. . And tire. . Sleep time again. .

** Dear neva call me tonitz.. hmm..hmm.. isit he is angry with me?? Sori dear, I love u..

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 64

Very tire todaz sia. . Early in the morning sending kids to school. . I guess kids also tire. . haaha.. But it worth it to being together with hubby even dun hav to slp. . Haaha.. Im more and more despressed le. .

Work also felt sleepy sia. . But got to ruan ruan ruan.. Haaha!!

I email my photos to Crystal for proceesing, hope can get any asignment asap. . Hard of cash le..Haiz..

** May see my photos here

Finally evening time and I back to in law house straight. . Hubby was at home too coz he is working 3rd shift tonitz.

I show him the photos tat I've taken. . At first still okie, but after seeing the last pcs of my bikini pix and he seen like not really happy. .

Den he asked me " U took at his house mah?" I said nope, at studio. He walk away den.

He asked me to hav dinner and I said shall we eat together and we proceed for it. . *Wink*

Den we home sweet home after tat..

Very tire so we slept early for the nitz. Dear called me at abt 11 plus asking me got see his UOB credit card mah.. den I said no le. . And I explained to him how to proceed to it if the card is lost etc called to credit card centre and I've gave him the contact. We hang up den. .

Really tire liao . .Got to sleep. . Nitz dear. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 63 - Shi Qi's birthdaz @ 12 Jan 09

Todaz is my birthdaz. . HAPPY BITHDAZ to me !! Wish me everythings goes smoothly on me, just for todaz will be glad. . Wish to see dear hubby badly and hope he is free for me tonitz. .

See my happy face !!

LoL

But sighh, when I was abt to take my favour pink earing that was a christmas prezie from Yan, it's drop and break into 2pcs sia. . *cry* It still can glue back la. . but. . haiz. . Tot todaz is my birthdaz and everything will be fine to me, still morning le. . And now, another earing down. I'm indeed an "Earing Killer". . Haaha..

My sad face. .

Judy was the first one who gave me my birthdaz prezie. So sweet and actually I didn't expect anyone to remember my birthdaz. Nini wish me "HAPPY BIRTHDAZ" when she saw me walked pass her desk. . The rests of my friends etc BK friend Axel, Secondary friend Deguang and many many more. . Wish me had a happy birthdaz too. . Cant list alot. . Mi hereby really thanks and appreciated everyone still can remember my birthdaz. . Im really very touching sia.

As usual, I called hubby but it seen like he neva onz his phone sia.. The whole daz phone was engaged. *cry* Mayb he wanna avoid me.

After lunch, super full and sleepy. KL msn me, wanna eat Huat Kuek mai??

Our conversation !!

KL : Wanna eat Huat Kuek mai?

Me : Simi Huat Kuek?

KL : No la, cleaning aunty asked me wanna eat bo, she wanna give me but I dun wan to eat so I ask u ai mai?

Me : Mai, I dun eat Huat Kuek de.

KL : Why mai le? Take la, since she is giving and I dun wanna eat. And todaz is your birthdaz too, we got no cake for you, so this Huat Kuek is to replace.

Me : Pengz!! Mai la, simi replaced?? Jie Hwa xian Fon isit??

KL : Keep on pester me

Me : Mai! Mai! Mai!

In the end, she gave up. She come to my lorong and chat with Ah min. Paying her $$ but den I dunno wat she was doing. I asking her she still telling me that no la, I saw Val carry a bag, I asked her wat is it and Val told me that Ah Min gave de. So she asked Ah Min lor. Im still so sotong and believe her sia. I asked Ah Min, wat u bought for Val and she looked at me blur blur. I guess xmh give her hint. . Dunno wat they are up to sia.

At abt 4plus, while I was busy with schedule. Ah Min suddenly comes to me said "Tracy was looking for me." I asked "Why?" She said " Arr !! Europe team meeting." Me still sotong and beileve her and follow her coz I see all the Europe Team gals are not around.

When I entered the room, OMG!! Surprise!! They prepared the birthdaz cake for me sia. . Omg, Omg, so touching!! Wanna cry out le. . Thanks everyone. . Im really so happy with all my friends were there for me on my birthdaz. . *HAPPY*

My portion of cake

My birthdaz cake

Look!!

Our Lunch Khaki Group. Big team right??

** May see the rests of the pix here

First time im celebrating my birthdaz in ML office. . We chop chop and back to work again.

Its time to go home. I called son son and find out dear was at home. As I noe todaz is supposed his off daz. Was quite disappointed and sad.

I cooked instant noodle and was eat at home. Why am I so miserable?? *SAD*

7pm liao and I'm off to in law's house. At lobby, I saw dear was home. Im indeed not happy and asked "I tot u are busy todaz?" He said yup, damn busy for the whole daz. I noe he is bluff but wat can I said?? If he is refusing to be with me.

Den, I found out mei mei was out for tuition until 8.30pm which was I'm not been told. Haiz !!

Dear asked me had my dinner already and I told him yup, I've taken. . No entertainment so I just at im law's house watching tv show. Den dear asked "Wanna go and watch "Red Cliff II". . Ops...He jio me for movie sia. . 1st time after we've sepreated.

Well, of coz I said okie. . At first he is trying to get Ming Ming and Mum along. . haiz.. Mum told him that she will be going to send Er jie to airport and Ming Ming said dun wanna go . .Lucky me!! Lol . .Bad gal hor. . :p

So he booked 4 pcs tkts included kids. . Otherwise no one will take care of them. . Coming to 8.30pm le, dear asked me to go and fetch mei mei back and kids pack their school bag home first before we going for show.

I go home change my slight longer pant as it will be cold during the nitz. Dear was driving us there. I found that I've find back the feel. . the times we are in a family feel. We bought our favour fry sotong, I go and take our free drink at Starbucks. . We sat down and had it. . Den we proceed for movie. . Dear said he go and take the tkt while we line up for the purchasing. I asked him wat he wanna buy and he told me that he'd already ordered. Will pass me the tkt later after he collect it.

Den we proceed to our seat. Sighh. . Son son really dunno wat to do de le. . He sat beside dear. . Haiz. . Me and dear was seating apart. .

After show, I asked dear to send me to Tampines to collect my photos. . But den I just afriad that he might will be misunderstood me again. . I'll explained to him but he neva said any.

We've reached home. Dear passed me Redtimo's key. I asked him to go up and slp since it was too late, tml morning den go back. But he refused. He seen like want and dun want. I dunno wat is his worry..And said he will be meeting Junming later onz. So I dun pester him and let him go.

He used son son's hp to sms as his hp had spoilt. That's why I cant contact him the whole daz. He sms me "HAPPY BIRTHDAZ"

*HAPPY* I replied him "Thanks dar. . Thanks for accompany me todaz. But how I wish you can be by my side tonitz.. I wanna to show you thing. . And dun be angry ya. Just now tat one is my photographer."

Well, dear neva reply me again but todaz is my most happy daz after some days.

P.S. Thanks dear again . .I really love u so much!!

Regards,

Shi Qi

Day 62

Nothing much to blog todaz. . Wake up cooked for kids den doing some house cleaning. . Laundry. . Sweepin floor etc. . CNY coming soon. . Alone doing spring cleaning. . A bit siong right??

Watch last esp for little nyonya. Blogging etc. .

Sms dear wanna meet for dinner mah? No reply. . Trying 2nd time again but still, no reply. . *cry*

Why he so mood swing de le?? Haiz..

Late evening gonna bring kids to in law house to take their school bags. . Gonna sleep early tonitz coz tml got school ya kids, and me, got to work as normal shift liao. .

P.S. I miss you dear . . Why u sometimes treat me cold and sometimes give me sweet moments?? I really love you so much. I will be sad if you dun treat me good. .

Hope ytd Life Touching Life Workshop can help you any. .

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 61

Well, I guess todaz I got alot to blog. . Hoho!!

Wake up damn early in the morning to attend son son's parent's workshop. It supposed to be at 9am as per the form and sms by the teacher. However, son said it is 7.30am in the morning, dear also did ever sign a form stated tat. . No choice. .

Dear sms son son tat it is gonna be late, he will wait for him directly at school. . Den we walk over. . Son son is actually walk over first but in the end we reached before him. Haha. .

So son son went for CCA orientation while we were there doing nothing. So I guess why we got to be there at 7.30am ba. We were walking here and there den dear was suggesting shall we go for breakfast den. . And he asked me to show him where is the front gate that I've told him. We went for the coffee shop where nearby our home. Mei mei wanted to have roti prata while dear wanna to eat noodle same as me so I order for him. *wink*

Drinks uncle come and take order for the drink. Dear asked mei mei wat to drink. She wanna to drink Power Grass and dear was telling uncle "Lui Sheng". Uncle was asking again "simi sheng??"

We were laughing out. . Mei mei telling him wat sheng la, is "xiao mai chao". Haha. . Dear was very shy at tat moments. . Haaha..

Den I noticing one thing, it is really called "Lui Sheng" sia..

After taking breakfast, dear wanna go home and take something, those bears for mei mei to sell it away. .

When reached home, dear find alot of the cabinets but cant managed to find any for mei mei. . Think he forgotten tat he had already throw away. ops. .

Den, he seen like cant bear to leave. . He see see here, see see there. . When I was telling him tat hey, it's time for us to return to school coz pur parent workshop is gonna start soon.

We proceed to school and attend the workshop as per instructed. Not a while, mei mei need to go off to school to meet her friends together for selling away her 2nd hand stuffs. We den walk out again to send mei mei to school . . Wat the fuck!! It is quite a nice workshop which telling us not only how to being a parenting but also how to maintain a relationship. (** I will blog about this topic when I've times) But the only thing I dun like is to speach. . Im so shy, same as my dear. . So we ciao. .Haaha.

We send mei mei to school den me and dear walk back again to son son's school. . We chat alot while walking back. Etc did I bought any 4D, coz recently house unit, dear's bike no and redtimo no kena strike and so sway we didnt buy any. The whole morning was like walking here and there but Im happy, happy being can be with dear dear and can chat alot. *HAPPY*

Even at the workshop, we still can eat, chat and laugh well. *Double happy*. I notice that he ever secretly trying to view me etc my neck and asked wat happen to my neck. It was becoz kena by bite by "wen zi". After the workshop, we wait for son son to end his orientation den we proceed to hav our lunch. Pengz, dear still can eat, Im very full sia. . But in the end dear asked to take some and I'll listen to him. . Heehee..

After tat, we went back home to in law's house, coz son son wanna to get his pant. Den, I notice dear's behavior towards me had changed. Dunno why, sigh. . After son got his pant we just went home directly.

Son son went out with friends after tat. . And Im alone at home. I sms dear whether is he working on Monday (12 Jan which is my birthday) and would be free to have dinner with me mah. But, disappointed he said nope he is not free. *cry*

I'm watched little noynya that I've missed during closing period and fall asleep without noeing. I wake up at 5pm and gonna prepared for my photoshoot. I sms dear again whether he is at work now unfortunate he didnt reply. I was thinking of asking him to send me to Crawford Lane for photoshoot.

Den no choice I called my dad to send me there since he is driving taxi and he agreed. But he didnt mentioned anything regards that he owe me $200. Sigh, I think he just dun wanna to return me back. .

It was so excited to have photoshoot again. Its was very tiring indeed with the post tat the photographer wanna me to post. I kena back pain after that but the result is prefect.

During the shooting dear actually did reply me tat he is at home, got a missed call and rec'd call from him too. But I didnt reply until I've finished my shooting. Shit, will he be thinking that Im going out to play and couldnt ans his call again mah??

After the shoot, mi immediately return sms to him saying that wanna to go for dinner, shall we have movie after that? But he reply nope, he is tire. Den I reply alright den, I shall fetch kids now. I went back without any meal.

When I reached in law's house, he came out and saw me, asking me wat happen to my face. I told him well, I went for photoshoot and the makeup was super thick. He den told me mei mei got things to tell me. Saying this coming sat she wanna to go for library, whether isit approve. Dear said he dun mind, so I listen to him.

We den went home, dear called me, surprise!! He said " hm, if I wanna to go out and cant managed to fetch kids, just inform him will do". Hmmm. . I asked "I didnt said I cant fetch le, wat u wanna trying to say". He said " No mah, I was tot you were out to play so dun rush home to fetch them". I said "no le, I didnt go out to play, I only go for photoshoot". Den we just hung up the call. Before sleeping, I sms dear, "Good nitz, I love u".

Ywan!! Its time to sleep liao. . Nitz everyone!!

Regards,

ShiQi

Day 60

Last nitz I walk out all the way to 3 bus stops away to take bus home. No choice, I sms dear whether can come and fetch me mah but he said he cant. *cry*

Den dear give me a call asking me am I going to fetch kids home. Den I was checking with him why and he said son son need to take something, den I asked him to bring them over ba I will be reaching home b4 9pm.

He sending kids home and just went off after that. .

Was quite tire last nitz and was sleep very early den.

Tis morning early wake up and sending kids to school. At first dear said he will be coming to fetch them at 6.30am but den I told dun need to trouble himself la. I will be sending them over.

Den come home bath den to Immigration there to collect my passport. They rejected my photo and saying that is more den 3 months ahead and they wont be accepted. I got to retake another one. With my stupid damn short hair. . I found it so ugly. But friends saying im look okie le. . *wink*

While waiting, I go to hawker centre to have yong tao hu. It is so weird to have meal alone myself. . Wish dear are there for me. .

Den, rec'd an sms from Janice(BK) saying they intend to arrange our meetup every qty instead. Im fine with that anyway, I guess hubby wont be wanna to attend.

Den Lawrence called me saying he has forgotten to get fund from us for Karen and Mingshui's birthday. Shall tfr to him tonitz for both of us.

Den I forward Janice's sms to dear just in case she will tot that I will inform him for sure. . ** They still dunno we have sepration.

Surprisely dear called me, but kena missed call. So I return call to him and he was asking abt the sms thing. Den I said well, just to inform u in case Janice neva forward to u. Dear said he did rec'd. Den it is fine and we hang up the call.

In the afternoon when I gave him a call again regards of son son's school tml parent meeting. But he said he was busy and call me back. Till now. . No call le. .

I dunno I've to work until wat time tonitz. . Shall see ba. .

Shall stop here. . got to go back to work..

Back to blog again. . Lucky I can go off before 7pm. I went to buy some refreshment den to fetch kids. . Dear dear doesnt seen happy den . . Coz of son son de money issue. . Son son spend alot and cant expain why, no doubt dear are not happy with him. Hao ba, it's time to sleep le. Tml gonna go to son son's school for parent meeting. . Nitz. .

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 59

A bit tire indeed. . Not much thing to do in office.

Open letter box and find out my passport application got issue. They still wan to hav another pcs of photo which is I've already attached for them. Sian. .

Sms to hubby tat need his help to start Redtimo engine for me and he surprisely he reply "ok". *happy*

I can go off at 6pm le but sigh, transport has no more. Hard to walk out coz I hav to walk for at least 3 bus stops away. Company cab can only take after 9pm.

Sms to dear whether he can come and fetch me after 7pm mah but sigh, he reply he cant. *sad*

No choice, I've dinner in office and just wait den. . At the same time can blog and maybe watch some show until 9pm ba.

Nothing happens today. . Just to be glad if I can stay normal for the rest of my day.

** Having craving of having durians, anyone??

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 58

Todaz is day 58. Sigh!! no sign of hubby at all. . Sms to him so many times but. . disappointed!!

Was really down todaz, no matter how I dun wish to think, hubby was came into my brain. . Really felt sad den. I got a feeling. . Tat is he will be more and more far away from me. No matter how I catch up to him, he will be run far far away. . The feel comes to me when from the Day 1 hubby left me.

I was despressed and went for a drink. Not drunk anyway. . Drunk can only temp take away my sadness but after that it comes back to me again. .

P.S - Hubby, I love you so much!! Pls dun leave me alone, hao mah??

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 57

closing of 2nd daz. . Abit tire indeed. . Most impt thing is I miss my hubby. . my kids. . no heard of them today. .

Sms to hubby but no reply from him. . *cry*

Nothing much. . worked until quite late. . When home and die on bed straight away.

P.S. I miss my hubby so much!! Not even a sms from him. . Why??

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 56

As usually to work. . for closing . . today is wk1, sian right??

Sms dear asking him is the mee is nice mah but he neva reply. . Sad . .

Busy with my work stuffs. . Nothing to blog. . During dinner time dear missed call me but I dunno, until I saw it and give him back the call but he told me nothing le. . Dunno wat he want also. .

Today I can come back home early coz not much things to do. I even cleared most of wk2 stuffs. . But EHQ lotsa of housebill not in yet, sigh. . Maybe they still in holiday mood sia. .

Yawn!! tire liao. . its time to slp, before tat, watch little nyonya first. . Good nitz everyone. .

And my dear hubby. . I miss u!! Nitz. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 55

Quite peaceful last nitz. . After dinner we shall watch tv and den to slp... super late sia. .

Wake up bring kids down to buy ingrediant to cook hokkien mee for dear dear. .

Den me to salon for treatment and cut. . She cut until too short le. . *cry*

When Im back from salon is abt 6pm. . I quickly go and do the cooking. . Pack and send to dear dear. . Got my lovely hokkien mee, self blew barley and melowdew. . (Will posted pix when I got time, busy with closing) Sad tat when I reached mum's house, he is not around. . Den I just left the mee for him and I ciao le. . Neva bring kids home coz Im working late nitz tml. .

But while Im on my way to pump petrol, dear called me. . a missed call. . coz I neva put my ear pcs. . I called him back. . He told me tat son son will be going to camp tml right which is he dun even took back his stuffs. . Still left at home sia. . No choice, I tell dear tat later on I come back to fetch them back den. . Dear said mei mei left for him ba. . But den I was thinking no different with bring 1 or 2 back, still got to send them to school. . He just said fine and asked where am I?? Sound like, he is care for me right?? I told him Im going to pump petrol den. . He said okie. .

Den I back to mum home again. . Dear will surprise to see me cutting hair again. He noes the reason behind wheneva I cut hair. He was asking me " u cutting hair again mah?" I said yup!! Lol. . Should asking him isit nice bo hor. . Aiya!!

I was telling son son tat since it is camping, I doubt u need to bring any books ro study. . Hubby also said make sense. But son son dun believe. . Den hubby said bring him back to take the stuffs den asked him to go back to mum's house house by bicycle and he shall bring them to school tml. . Pengz. . Why dun wanna say early le. .

So tonitz Im alone at home. . So lonely!! Dear calling me up to take some particulars to fill up mei mei's form. . After tat, no reply liao . .

** I should be busy with closing the whole week. Blog will be neglect!!

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 54

Sigh. . Ytd was supposed to go and fetch kids back home. I reached mum's house at 6pm. As im not really tat feeling well so I was intend to bring them back home early.

But, angry to say tat, son son dun even wanna come out and tell me tat he is not going home. He all the way was playing games inside with his daddy. . I've asked mei mei to go and tell him tat Im going off soon and wan him to go and had dinner fast but he just couldnt go for it. *Angry*

Dad and mum asking me for dinner but I really dun feel wanna take any . . Sori if I make u both angry, its not tat I dun wanna take any dinner. . Just tat not feeling well. .

Until 7plus going to be 8pm. I go in and tell son son off. . He den telling me tat he not going back home. Den dear was tellin me why not let him staying there tonight and let mei mei come back with me. I was not happy of coz. And I said "forget it den, I go home myself."

I just took my bag and wanna left. Dear come out and said, let mei mei come home with me. Den I said ok, tats fine with me.

When I reached home, I felt a bit of hungry and cooked some instant noodle to eat. Shared with mei mei of coz becoz I dun wanna to take too much.

In a while, dear sms me. Saying "sori for the incident, I will talk to son and will make beta arrangement next time."

I just replied him tat no worry, and explained to him tat Im not feeling well and was in a hush to him too. .

Was quite tire and sleep fast at night.

Wake up today and cooked pork porridge for mei mei and myself. Den I do some washing of the toilet, landry etc. . Sms to dear asking him wanna go for a walk tonight after I've fetch son son. . Till quite some times den he replied tat he need to work late night. . So. . Alright den. .

Again feeling dizzy so I sms to son son tat Im not going to fetch him. Asked him to come back himself. . And I cooked dinner for them . .

God bless me tonight . . Hope today will be a happy night for me. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 53

Cant get to sleep ytd nitz. Must be used to holiday period le. Kids too. . We were chatting until late midnitz den sleep. .

Before tat, I went to toilet. Kids went too. . Den I discovered something. . OMG!! Aunty came le.. Sigh . . How am I going for my photoshoot sia. .

Anyway I come out and telling them "Aunty came" Son son was like dun understand and asked, "Which aunty?"

Mi: Aunty coming lah!
Son: Who sia?
Mei: Aiyo, you dunno who is aunty meh? Da Yi Ma is ah ma's sister la.
Mi: Pengz!! No la, not ah ma's sister la, Da Yi Ma got some other meaning de.
Mei: No meh? Den who?
Son: Who who who?
Mi: I come red(talk in chinese)
Son: Wat red?
Mi: I come red(talk in hokkien)
Son/Mei: Wats tat??
Mi: I got to put on loti(bread) la.
Son: Got bread huh? I wanna eat le, Im hungry.
Mei: Got the meaning(but laughing)
Mi: Pengz again(do u understand wat im saying mah?)
Mi: Yaya, still got cherry jam, u wan bo??
Son: I want me, didnt noe u bought a jam.
Mi: 3rd pengz. .
Mei: Keep on laughing. .

** Is it a joke??

Cant believe I got such a cute, lovely and naive kids. Really is god given hubby and myself wat a wonderful prezie.

Morning wake up and prepared breakfast for them, send them to school. I was still wondering the can I actually drive into son son's school mah, or walk over beta. . In the end, I just take a vote and go to his school by redtimo. Lucky we can go in and make a turn out, otherwise I got to go one whole round sia.

Den on road, I saw many students are wearing tie. I was thinking, not Monday meh? When I reached house downstair, I saw a senior student standing there and I go up to him and check with him which day has to put on tie. He told me is every Monday but today is the first day of school so still has to put on. I quickly go up and rang to dear and wanted him to bring it down to him. Thanks god. He managed to catch up with him. But again, I sms him, he neva reply again. :(

I went for my work but no job to be done todaz, all are having holiday mood and sites spoke are all on leave. I just blog den. . until 5.30pm to log off.. Thinkin of taken half daz half to do treatment of my hair but KL said wasting leave . .So . . leave it ba . .

Well, lets see wat will going on tonitz ba. . Wish me good luck den. .

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 52

Wake up at 10am to watch Doramon. Showed until 12pm. Den we bath and going out for lunch at Parkway and shop there. Spend almost $200 in buying kids school bags, shoes, son son pants and blouse for camping. And I got provide him $$ for camp. Sigh. . $$ really spend damn fast. . My bank gonna bankrupt soon. . :(

When the time we've finished buying those staffs and wanted to go home, omg, its raining. .

We proceed home anyway. We go to in law's house to take mei mei's school staffs. Den, we are being caught by tv show. Haha. . Stay there watch and watch until hubby come back.

He den go for his bath and sit outside the dining room. He talks about last nitz how happening in Vivo. Den kids need to take dinner soon. I was asking dear are we going for dinner? He was like in a shock tat, are we going for dinner?? Omg. . He den said mum has cooked our dinner, no choice, I ask the kids to have their dinner there. Dear too but I dun wish to take any. Very sian again, I dun even feel im hungry for the whole day while I neva touch any food at all..

Im telling dear again about the PUB bill, I go down for payment den I come up again to show him the bill. He actually said the price looks ok to him but I dun feel ease, I may go and check or want me to pass him the bill he can check for mi. But well, since dear said it is ok den ok ba. . To save the troubles.

After tat, we went home. Dear is coming with us. . We proceed to our talk once we reached home. As usually, I am telling him that I wanna to resolve this issue and finalise what we should do now rather den hanging there. Dear was given me 2 choices, one is immediate sign, another one is to drag, i can do wateva I like to but no garantee he will be back. Wats the fuck?? Why gods are not helping me sia?? I really got a hush of telling him, "tats fine den, I sign, but I wan kids to be with me, I wan the Fu Yang Chuan and the housing totally is mine, u cant take a single cent." Before I said, I would think: "Hey, I love him, why I wan to do tat? I must be mad again."

He would said he got my envidence, he wont allow me to take all too. . But dear, trust me, no matter how I angry, I will think before I say anything in order to hurt you again. But dear, why cant u just take a consideration of us le?? Why no matter how I talk, u just couldnt listen in. I noe when a person is hurt, it will take so much time to heal. I will give you time, but just to be fair to me can, dun take avantage of my goodness to u. .

Well, I just talk about conclusion den. In the end, we end up with this decision. 1 year for him to cool down, and once he is ready, he will be trying again with me. At first he want 2 years, den cut down to 1year of cool down. Come on, u need 1 year of cooling down. . That is too much!!

I noe I cant force him to do whicheva he dun like or dun want to. I got to follow his tail here and there. Wheneva we talk about certain thing and he refuse to ans, he could just change topic and avoid it by saying he is headache la, tire la. . etc etc..

He gave me a shock of watching my necklace and asked, where u got this earing? hm, I beg your pardon? Wat earing you are talking abt? (actually he said wrongly, he was talkin abt the ring and not earing. :p) He den stop it. . I touch my ring and asking him, "Are you saying this ring?" He was like hm hm. . I said, "this is from u, u dun remember mah?" Den he watch my hand again and asked:" Since you no long wearing the ring, who bother to patch back?" I said, "No, all the while I wearing dear, I just got it off when I've reached home, tat is becoz I dun wan to make spoilt of it when I doing housework and you should noeing it." (He is smiling)

I asking him to go home and rest den, before he left, I pull his hand and asking:" Dear, can I give you a hugz?" He den hugz me tight, feel so love again and warm. We just hugz each other for abt 10 seconds but tats enough for me. Neva think of after so long of seperation and we can hugz each other again. I really love u so much dear. .

Den, he went off. . Happy and sadness too. . Happy is becoz I've hugz him, Sadness is he is going back to his mum's house again. I sms him good nitz and wish him well. . Dear neva reply. .

I think I will be able to get a good sleep tonitz. Since so long I've neva had a good sleep for the while.

Good nitz dear and sweet dream . .I Love You!!

Regards,
Shi Qi