Day 52

Wake up at 10am to watch Doramon. Showed until 12pm. Den we bath and going out for lunch at Parkway and shop there. Spend almost $200 in buying kids school bags, shoes, son son pants and blouse for camping. And I got provide him $$ for camp. Sigh. . $$ really spend damn fast. . My bank gonna bankrupt soon. . :(

When the time we've finished buying those staffs and wanted to go home, omg, its raining. .

We proceed home anyway. We go to in law's house to take mei mei's school staffs. Den, we are being caught by tv show. Haha. . Stay there watch and watch until hubby come back.

He den go for his bath and sit outside the dining room. He talks about last nitz how happening in Vivo. Den kids need to take dinner soon. I was asking dear are we going for dinner? He was like in a shock tat, are we going for dinner?? Omg. . He den said mum has cooked our dinner, no choice, I ask the kids to have their dinner there. Dear too but I dun wish to take any. Very sian again, I dun even feel im hungry for the whole day while I neva touch any food at all..

Im telling dear again about the PUB bill, I go down for payment den I come up again to show him the bill. He actually said the price looks ok to him but I dun feel ease, I may go and check or want me to pass him the bill he can check for mi. But well, since dear said it is ok den ok ba. . To save the troubles.

After tat, we went home. Dear is coming with us. . We proceed to our talk once we reached home. As usually, I am telling him that I wanna to resolve this issue and finalise what we should do now rather den hanging there. Dear was given me 2 choices, one is immediate sign, another one is to drag, i can do wateva I like to but no garantee he will be back. Wats the fuck?? Why gods are not helping me sia?? I really got a hush of telling him, "tats fine den, I sign, but I wan kids to be with me, I wan the Fu Yang Chuan and the housing totally is mine, u cant take a single cent." Before I said, I would think: "Hey, I love him, why I wan to do tat? I must be mad again."

He would said he got my envidence, he wont allow me to take all too. . But dear, trust me, no matter how I angry, I will think before I say anything in order to hurt you again. But dear, why cant u just take a consideration of us le?? Why no matter how I talk, u just couldnt listen in. I noe when a person is hurt, it will take so much time to heal. I will give you time, but just to be fair to me can, dun take avantage of my goodness to u. .

Well, I just talk about conclusion den. In the end, we end up with this decision. 1 year for him to cool down, and once he is ready, he will be trying again with me. At first he want 2 years, den cut down to 1year of cool down. Come on, u need 1 year of cooling down. . That is too much!!

I noe I cant force him to do whicheva he dun like or dun want to. I got to follow his tail here and there. Wheneva we talk about certain thing and he refuse to ans, he could just change topic and avoid it by saying he is headache la, tire la. . etc etc..

He gave me a shock of watching my necklace and asked, where u got this earing? hm, I beg your pardon? Wat earing you are talking abt? (actually he said wrongly, he was talkin abt the ring and not earing. :p) He den stop it. . I touch my ring and asking him, "Are you saying this ring?" He was like hm hm. . I said, "this is from u, u dun remember mah?" Den he watch my hand again and asked:" Since you no long wearing the ring, who bother to patch back?" I said, "No, all the while I wearing dear, I just got it off when I've reached home, tat is becoz I dun wan to make spoilt of it when I doing housework and you should noeing it." (He is smiling)

I asking him to go home and rest den, before he left, I pull his hand and asking:" Dear, can I give you a hugz?" He den hugz me tight, feel so love again and warm. We just hugz each other for abt 10 seconds but tats enough for me. Neva think of after so long of seperation and we can hugz each other again. I really love u so much dear. .

Den, he went off. . Happy and sadness too. . Happy is becoz I've hugz him, Sadness is he is going back to his mum's house again. I sms him good nitz and wish him well. . Dear neva reply. .

I think I will be able to get a good sleep tonitz. Since so long I've neva had a good sleep for the while.

Good nitz dear and sweet dream . .I Love You!!

Regards,
Shi Qi