Day 61

Well, I guess todaz I got alot to blog. . Hoho!!

Wake up damn early in the morning to attend son son's parent's workshop. It supposed to be at 9am as per the form and sms by the teacher. However, son said it is 7.30am in the morning, dear also did ever sign a form stated tat. . No choice. .

Dear sms son son tat it is gonna be late, he will wait for him directly at school. . Den we walk over. . Son son is actually walk over first but in the end we reached before him. Haha. .

So son son went for CCA orientation while we were there doing nothing. So I guess why we got to be there at 7.30am ba. We were walking here and there den dear was suggesting shall we go for breakfast den. . And he asked me to show him where is the front gate that I've told him. We went for the coffee shop where nearby our home. Mei mei wanted to have roti prata while dear wanna to eat noodle same as me so I order for him. *wink*

Drinks uncle come and take order for the drink. Dear asked mei mei wat to drink. She wanna to drink Power Grass and dear was telling uncle "Lui Sheng". Uncle was asking again "simi sheng??"

We were laughing out. . Mei mei telling him wat sheng la, is "xiao mai chao". Haha. . Dear was very shy at tat moments. . Haaha..

Den I noticing one thing, it is really called "Lui Sheng" sia..

After taking breakfast, dear wanna go home and take something, those bears for mei mei to sell it away. .

When reached home, dear find alot of the cabinets but cant managed to find any for mei mei. . Think he forgotten tat he had already throw away. ops. .

Den, he seen like cant bear to leave. . He see see here, see see there. . When I was telling him tat hey, it's time for us to return to school coz pur parent workshop is gonna start soon.

We proceed to school and attend the workshop as per instructed. Not a while, mei mei need to go off to school to meet her friends together for selling away her 2nd hand stuffs. We den walk out again to send mei mei to school . . Wat the fuck!! It is quite a nice workshop which telling us not only how to being a parenting but also how to maintain a relationship. (** I will blog about this topic when I've times) But the only thing I dun like is to speach. . Im so shy, same as my dear. . So we ciao. .Haaha.

We send mei mei to school den me and dear walk back again to son son's school. . We chat alot while walking back. Etc did I bought any 4D, coz recently house unit, dear's bike no and redtimo no kena strike and so sway we didnt buy any. The whole morning was like walking here and there but Im happy, happy being can be with dear dear and can chat alot. *HAPPY*

Even at the workshop, we still can eat, chat and laugh well. *Double happy*. I notice that he ever secretly trying to view me etc my neck and asked wat happen to my neck. It was becoz kena by bite by "wen zi". After the workshop, we wait for son son to end his orientation den we proceed to hav our lunch. Pengz, dear still can eat, Im very full sia. . But in the end dear asked to take some and I'll listen to him. . Heehee..

After tat, we went back home to in law's house, coz son son wanna to get his pant. Den, I notice dear's behavior towards me had changed. Dunno why, sigh. . After son got his pant we just went home directly.

Son son went out with friends after tat. . And Im alone at home. I sms dear whether is he working on Monday (12 Jan which is my birthday) and would be free to have dinner with me mah. But, disappointed he said nope he is not free. *cry*

I'm watched little noynya that I've missed during closing period and fall asleep without noeing. I wake up at 5pm and gonna prepared for my photoshoot. I sms dear again whether he is at work now unfortunate he didnt reply. I was thinking of asking him to send me to Crawford Lane for photoshoot.

Den no choice I called my dad to send me there since he is driving taxi and he agreed. But he didnt mentioned anything regards that he owe me $200. Sigh, I think he just dun wanna to return me back. .

It was so excited to have photoshoot again. Its was very tiring indeed with the post tat the photographer wanna me to post. I kena back pain after that but the result is prefect.

During the shooting dear actually did reply me tat he is at home, got a missed call and rec'd call from him too. But I didnt reply until I've finished my shooting. Shit, will he be thinking that Im going out to play and couldnt ans his call again mah??

After the shoot, mi immediately return sms to him saying that wanna to go for dinner, shall we have movie after that? But he reply nope, he is tire. Den I reply alright den, I shall fetch kids now. I went back without any meal.

When I reached in law's house, he came out and saw me, asking me wat happen to my face. I told him well, I went for photoshoot and the makeup was super thick. He den told me mei mei got things to tell me. Saying this coming sat she wanna to go for library, whether isit approve. Dear said he dun mind, so I listen to him.

We den went home, dear called me, surprise!! He said " hm, if I wanna to go out and cant managed to fetch kids, just inform him will do". Hmmm. . I asked "I didnt said I cant fetch le, wat u wanna trying to say". He said " No mah, I was tot you were out to play so dun rush home to fetch them". I said "no le, I didnt go out to play, I only go for photoshoot". Den we just hung up the call. Before sleeping, I sms dear, "Good nitz, I love u".

Ywan!! Its time to sleep liao. . Nitz everyone!!

Regards,

ShiQi

Day 60

Last nitz I walk out all the way to 3 bus stops away to take bus home. No choice, I sms dear whether can come and fetch me mah but he said he cant. *cry*

Den dear give me a call asking me am I going to fetch kids home. Den I was checking with him why and he said son son need to take something, den I asked him to bring them over ba I will be reaching home b4 9pm.

He sending kids home and just went off after that. .

Was quite tire last nitz and was sleep very early den.

Tis morning early wake up and sending kids to school. At first dear said he will be coming to fetch them at 6.30am but den I told dun need to trouble himself la. I will be sending them over.

Den come home bath den to Immigration there to collect my passport. They rejected my photo and saying that is more den 3 months ahead and they wont be accepted. I got to retake another one. With my stupid damn short hair. . I found it so ugly. But friends saying im look okie le. . *wink*

While waiting, I go to hawker centre to have yong tao hu. It is so weird to have meal alone myself. . Wish dear are there for me. .

Den, rec'd an sms from Janice(BK) saying they intend to arrange our meetup every qty instead. Im fine with that anyway, I guess hubby wont be wanna to attend.

Den Lawrence called me saying he has forgotten to get fund from us for Karen and Mingshui's birthday. Shall tfr to him tonitz for both of us.

Den I forward Janice's sms to dear just in case she will tot that I will inform him for sure. . ** They still dunno we have sepration.

Surprisely dear called me, but kena missed call. So I return call to him and he was asking abt the sms thing. Den I said well, just to inform u in case Janice neva forward to u. Dear said he did rec'd. Den it is fine and we hang up the call.

In the afternoon when I gave him a call again regards of son son's school tml parent meeting. But he said he was busy and call me back. Till now. . No call le. .

I dunno I've to work until wat time tonitz. . Shall see ba. .

Shall stop here. . got to go back to work..

Back to blog again. . Lucky I can go off before 7pm. I went to buy some refreshment den to fetch kids. . Dear dear doesnt seen happy den . . Coz of son son de money issue. . Son son spend alot and cant expain why, no doubt dear are not happy with him. Hao ba, it's time to sleep le. Tml gonna go to son son's school for parent meeting. . Nitz. .

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 59

A bit tire indeed. . Not much thing to do in office.

Open letter box and find out my passport application got issue. They still wan to hav another pcs of photo which is I've already attached for them. Sian. .

Sms to hubby tat need his help to start Redtimo engine for me and he surprisely he reply "ok". *happy*

I can go off at 6pm le but sigh, transport has no more. Hard to walk out coz I hav to walk for at least 3 bus stops away. Company cab can only take after 9pm.

Sms to dear whether he can come and fetch me after 7pm mah but sigh, he reply he cant. *sad*

No choice, I've dinner in office and just wait den. . At the same time can blog and maybe watch some show until 9pm ba.

Nothing happens today. . Just to be glad if I can stay normal for the rest of my day.

** Having craving of having durians, anyone??

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 58

Todaz is day 58. Sigh!! no sign of hubby at all. . Sms to him so many times but. . disappointed!!

Was really down todaz, no matter how I dun wish to think, hubby was came into my brain. . Really felt sad den. I got a feeling. . Tat is he will be more and more far away from me. No matter how I catch up to him, he will be run far far away. . The feel comes to me when from the Day 1 hubby left me.

I was despressed and went for a drink. Not drunk anyway. . Drunk can only temp take away my sadness but after that it comes back to me again. .

P.S - Hubby, I love you so much!! Pls dun leave me alone, hao mah??

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 57

closing of 2nd daz. . Abit tire indeed. . Most impt thing is I miss my hubby. . my kids. . no heard of them today. .

Sms to hubby but no reply from him. . *cry*

Nothing much. . worked until quite late. . When home and die on bed straight away.

P.S. I miss my hubby so much!! Not even a sms from him. . Why??

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 56

As usually to work. . for closing . . today is wk1, sian right??

Sms dear asking him is the mee is nice mah but he neva reply. . Sad . .

Busy with my work stuffs. . Nothing to blog. . During dinner time dear missed call me but I dunno, until I saw it and give him back the call but he told me nothing le. . Dunno wat he want also. .

Today I can come back home early coz not much things to do. I even cleared most of wk2 stuffs. . But EHQ lotsa of housebill not in yet, sigh. . Maybe they still in holiday mood sia. .

Yawn!! tire liao. . its time to slp, before tat, watch little nyonya first. . Good nitz everyone. .

And my dear hubby. . I miss u!! Nitz. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 55

Quite peaceful last nitz. . After dinner we shall watch tv and den to slp... super late sia. .

Wake up bring kids down to buy ingrediant to cook hokkien mee for dear dear. .

Den me to salon for treatment and cut. . She cut until too short le. . *cry*

When Im back from salon is abt 6pm. . I quickly go and do the cooking. . Pack and send to dear dear. . Got my lovely hokkien mee, self blew barley and melowdew. . (Will posted pix when I got time, busy with closing) Sad tat when I reached mum's house, he is not around. . Den I just left the mee for him and I ciao le. . Neva bring kids home coz Im working late nitz tml. .

But while Im on my way to pump petrol, dear called me. . a missed call. . coz I neva put my ear pcs. . I called him back. . He told me tat son son will be going to camp tml right which is he dun even took back his stuffs. . Still left at home sia. . No choice, I tell dear tat later on I come back to fetch them back den. . Dear said mei mei left for him ba. . But den I was thinking no different with bring 1 or 2 back, still got to send them to school. . He just said fine and asked where am I?? Sound like, he is care for me right?? I told him Im going to pump petrol den. . He said okie. .

Den I back to mum home again. . Dear will surprise to see me cutting hair again. He noes the reason behind wheneva I cut hair. He was asking me " u cutting hair again mah?" I said yup!! Lol. . Should asking him isit nice bo hor. . Aiya!!

I was telling son son tat since it is camping, I doubt u need to bring any books ro study. . Hubby also said make sense. But son son dun believe. . Den hubby said bring him back to take the stuffs den asked him to go back to mum's house house by bicycle and he shall bring them to school tml. . Pengz. . Why dun wanna say early le. .

So tonitz Im alone at home. . So lonely!! Dear calling me up to take some particulars to fill up mei mei's form. . After tat, no reply liao . .

** I should be busy with closing the whole week. Blog will be neglect!!

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 54

Sigh. . Ytd was supposed to go and fetch kids back home. I reached mum's house at 6pm. As im not really tat feeling well so I was intend to bring them back home early.

But, angry to say tat, son son dun even wanna come out and tell me tat he is not going home. He all the way was playing games inside with his daddy. . I've asked mei mei to go and tell him tat Im going off soon and wan him to go and had dinner fast but he just couldnt go for it. *Angry*

Dad and mum asking me for dinner but I really dun feel wanna take any . . Sori if I make u both angry, its not tat I dun wanna take any dinner. . Just tat not feeling well. .

Until 7plus going to be 8pm. I go in and tell son son off. . He den telling me tat he not going back home. Den dear was tellin me why not let him staying there tonight and let mei mei come back with me. I was not happy of coz. And I said "forget it den, I go home myself."

I just took my bag and wanna left. Dear come out and said, let mei mei come home with me. Den I said ok, tats fine with me.

When I reached home, I felt a bit of hungry and cooked some instant noodle to eat. Shared with mei mei of coz becoz I dun wanna to take too much.

In a while, dear sms me. Saying "sori for the incident, I will talk to son and will make beta arrangement next time."

I just replied him tat no worry, and explained to him tat Im not feeling well and was in a hush to him too. .

Was quite tire and sleep fast at night.

Wake up today and cooked pork porridge for mei mei and myself. Den I do some washing of the toilet, landry etc. . Sms to dear asking him wanna go for a walk tonight after I've fetch son son. . Till quite some times den he replied tat he need to work late night. . So. . Alright den. .

Again feeling dizzy so I sms to son son tat Im not going to fetch him. Asked him to come back himself. . And I cooked dinner for them . .

God bless me tonight . . Hope today will be a happy night for me. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 53

Cant get to sleep ytd nitz. Must be used to holiday period le. Kids too. . We were chatting until late midnitz den sleep. .

Before tat, I went to toilet. Kids went too. . Den I discovered something. . OMG!! Aunty came le.. Sigh . . How am I going for my photoshoot sia. .

Anyway I come out and telling them "Aunty came" Son son was like dun understand and asked, "Which aunty?"

Mi: Aunty coming lah!
Son: Who sia?
Mei: Aiyo, you dunno who is aunty meh? Da Yi Ma is ah ma's sister la.
Mi: Pengz!! No la, not ah ma's sister la, Da Yi Ma got some other meaning de.
Mei: No meh? Den who?
Son: Who who who?
Mi: I come red(talk in chinese)
Son: Wat red?
Mi: I come red(talk in hokkien)
Son/Mei: Wats tat??
Mi: I got to put on loti(bread) la.
Son: Got bread huh? I wanna eat le, Im hungry.
Mei: Got the meaning(but laughing)
Mi: Pengz again(do u understand wat im saying mah?)
Mi: Yaya, still got cherry jam, u wan bo??
Son: I want me, didnt noe u bought a jam.
Mi: 3rd pengz. .
Mei: Keep on laughing. .

** Is it a joke??

Cant believe I got such a cute, lovely and naive kids. Really is god given hubby and myself wat a wonderful prezie.

Morning wake up and prepared breakfast for them, send them to school. I was still wondering the can I actually drive into son son's school mah, or walk over beta. . In the end, I just take a vote and go to his school by redtimo. Lucky we can go in and make a turn out, otherwise I got to go one whole round sia.

Den on road, I saw many students are wearing tie. I was thinking, not Monday meh? When I reached house downstair, I saw a senior student standing there and I go up to him and check with him which day has to put on tie. He told me is every Monday but today is the first day of school so still has to put on. I quickly go up and rang to dear and wanted him to bring it down to him. Thanks god. He managed to catch up with him. But again, I sms him, he neva reply again. :(

I went for my work but no job to be done todaz, all are having holiday mood and sites spoke are all on leave. I just blog den. . until 5.30pm to log off.. Thinkin of taken half daz half to do treatment of my hair but KL said wasting leave . .So . . leave it ba . .

Well, lets see wat will going on tonitz ba. . Wish me good luck den. .

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 52

Wake up at 10am to watch Doramon. Showed until 12pm. Den we bath and going out for lunch at Parkway and shop there. Spend almost $200 in buying kids school bags, shoes, son son pants and blouse for camping. And I got provide him $$ for camp. Sigh. . $$ really spend damn fast. . My bank gonna bankrupt soon. . :(

When the time we've finished buying those staffs and wanted to go home, omg, its raining. .

We proceed home anyway. We go to in law's house to take mei mei's school staffs. Den, we are being caught by tv show. Haha. . Stay there watch and watch until hubby come back.

He den go for his bath and sit outside the dining room. He talks about last nitz how happening in Vivo. Den kids need to take dinner soon. I was asking dear are we going for dinner? He was like in a shock tat, are we going for dinner?? Omg. . He den said mum has cooked our dinner, no choice, I ask the kids to have their dinner there. Dear too but I dun wish to take any. Very sian again, I dun even feel im hungry for the whole day while I neva touch any food at all..

Im telling dear again about the PUB bill, I go down for payment den I come up again to show him the bill. He actually said the price looks ok to him but I dun feel ease, I may go and check or want me to pass him the bill he can check for mi. But well, since dear said it is ok den ok ba. . To save the troubles.

After tat, we went home. Dear is coming with us. . We proceed to our talk once we reached home. As usually, I am telling him that I wanna to resolve this issue and finalise what we should do now rather den hanging there. Dear was given me 2 choices, one is immediate sign, another one is to drag, i can do wateva I like to but no garantee he will be back. Wats the fuck?? Why gods are not helping me sia?? I really got a hush of telling him, "tats fine den, I sign, but I wan kids to be with me, I wan the Fu Yang Chuan and the housing totally is mine, u cant take a single cent." Before I said, I would think: "Hey, I love him, why I wan to do tat? I must be mad again."

He would said he got my envidence, he wont allow me to take all too. . But dear, trust me, no matter how I angry, I will think before I say anything in order to hurt you again. But dear, why cant u just take a consideration of us le?? Why no matter how I talk, u just couldnt listen in. I noe when a person is hurt, it will take so much time to heal. I will give you time, but just to be fair to me can, dun take avantage of my goodness to u. .

Well, I just talk about conclusion den. In the end, we end up with this decision. 1 year for him to cool down, and once he is ready, he will be trying again with me. At first he want 2 years, den cut down to 1year of cool down. Come on, u need 1 year of cooling down. . That is too much!!

I noe I cant force him to do whicheva he dun like or dun want to. I got to follow his tail here and there. Wheneva we talk about certain thing and he refuse to ans, he could just change topic and avoid it by saying he is headache la, tire la. . etc etc..

He gave me a shock of watching my necklace and asked, where u got this earing? hm, I beg your pardon? Wat earing you are talking abt? (actually he said wrongly, he was talkin abt the ring and not earing. :p) He den stop it. . I touch my ring and asking him, "Are you saying this ring?" He was like hm hm. . I said, "this is from u, u dun remember mah?" Den he watch my hand again and asked:" Since you no long wearing the ring, who bother to patch back?" I said, "No, all the while I wearing dear, I just got it off when I've reached home, tat is becoz I dun wan to make spoilt of it when I doing housework and you should noeing it." (He is smiling)

I asking him to go home and rest den, before he left, I pull his hand and asking:" Dear, can I give you a hugz?" He den hugz me tight, feel so love again and warm. We just hugz each other for abt 10 seconds but tats enough for me. Neva think of after so long of seperation and we can hugz each other again. I really love u so much dear. .

Den, he went off. . Happy and sadness too. . Happy is becoz I've hugz him, Sadness is he is going back to his mum's house again. I sms him good nitz and wish him well. . Dear neva reply. .

I think I will be able to get a good sleep tonitz. Since so long I've neva had a good sleep for the while.

Good nitz dear and sweet dream . .I Love You!!

Regards,
Shi Qi