Our memory Part 5‏

How are you dear? Did u rest well during your rest day ytd. . Understand from Er jie tat till now u still dun wish to see me. Altot Im sad but Im feelin ok now le, I wont bother and pester u which I promise and I will keep it. U really dun hav to avoid me de. Dad was telling me actually I really did well to bein a good wife and mother, Which is now I think back, indeed Im not a good one. From young Im not been train to do so, When Im in the wrong, no one was there to correct me. Tats why I would said mama could tell me off if im really in the wrong. To me, they are really my real parent. Now time was 1111. Do you now wat does that mean? Tats mean someone was missing u at this time of 1111. And I wish to wait till the time turn to 1314. Tat means foreva.

Hope the attached song can keep u pleasure while reading on.

Let back to refresh out memory. I've just wondered did u read it? Does it really let you think of our past? Tats was really very sweet moments.

Time passed fast. I dun wish we seprated for too long and our relationship will turn sour soon or later.

After given birth to mei mei, so sad tat mum wont help us to take care of her. . We really hav no choice but to send to my sister to take care of her. Altot it is a very sad issue but we still hav to go for it.

Our term doesnt come smoothly after that. We quarrel alot, blame each other, no one wanna bear the fault nor wanna to bein each other shoe to think of it. Husband and wife shouldnt be like tat. We dun even talk much. Once started to talk, we will end up quarrel. This has been hestate me for so long. I were always blame you for not caring us. But in fact, are you thinkin at my side too? Must be hard on u le..I still remember u always bit me too when I've just give birth to boy boy. No matter right or wrong. Until tat one punch from u, I got a crop of blood inside my stomach den I decided to go and report to police. Tat punch really make me off and when will get pain offen.

There's one day, we cant get to sleep. We chat on the bed. And suddenly u was telling me tat can you sms a friend. Dear, u now, Im always trust u. I dun suspect u any. . I would said:"ok, go ahead." The next day, u bring boy boy downstair to buy things and never bring your phone along. Suddenly, your phone rang. I simple pick up and see who was tat. As I tot husband and wife shouldnt be having any secret no doubt need some privacy.

Neva did I noe, tat was the gal who gave you the valentine card. The sms was saying:" Wat did u wanna tell me abt your dream last nitz." But dear why? Im your wife but den you couldnt tell me tat and yet sms another gal this msg. Do u feel my pain inside my heart? Alright, Im acted normal and reply her. "Im sori, I've forgotten wat did I msg u, could u pls tell me?" Den she replied saying tat" U dreamed of something abt her and wanna tell her." After tat, I've stop reply.

When you are back, Im askin u, who did u sms ytd. You began to suspect me seeing your phone. Im tellin u I didnt. Den, u still can bluff me by sending a guy this msg: "Are you a guy or gal." That person is a guy of coz reply u as he is a guy. But, wat is my most heart pain is, my dear was liein to me. The number I saw was not this. And u started to quarrel with me and that is my another painful thing. My hubby can actually quarrel with me becoz of another gal. The whole issue im not at fault, in the end I still be the one who started to talk to u and apologize to u.

Well, this gal and u keep on contacting each other. I guess u did like her alot. I am thinkin of given up. But becoz of my 2 kids. I just put off. The rests of the msg is actually from er jie. I didnt do anything anymore. But this gal still can curse us tat one day we will divorce. This is the most worry thing I've eva had.

I've tried not to think much, continued to do my work and my stuffs. This has been a very painful thing to me. We hav started to ingore each other feeling no matter wat we do. After that, I wish to move out to hav a beta life with only 4 of us life. Are u objected? I insist. Becoz I hope we can actually can an adult and dun always depends on parents anymore. Moreover, we are not young anymore, shouldnt be always sleep with kids and should be havin out own house too.

Finally, we got our own love nest. We use our 3 months effort to build our love nest. We paint, clean and buy furnitures. Altot we dun hav much cash on hand. Altot wat I wanna do has become a dream. No matter wat, I am very pleaseful with wat I've own now. This is our 1st love nest. Are you happy? Are you stress with the financial? Dear, No matter wat, we are husband and wife. We can shared our sow and happiness together de right?

We got ourself a maid to take care of kids. So tat we can put our heart to work without any worry. For the 1st 2 years still okie. But after that, we started to having problem again. Again when u hav problem, u dun talk to me, you started to hide everything from me. After tat, we do each other thing without informed each other. I am begin to hav this find of feeling tat u no longer love me anymore. Or rather said u are used to hav me ard only. We always putting our kids on maid and dun really care this home at all.

Not long we got our 1st car redtimo. altot it is small, but for our family is not a good enough. Redtimo is really a good partner when im down, he is the only one who can be with me no matter how. But as for hubby and kids, they are far far away from me when the time passed by. altot tat time I still not yet got my licence, redtimo is always by my side.

But however, he also brin us bad memory too. And given us lotsa of bad news. I was thinkin, if we didnt buy redtimo, den we shouldnt ba havin this kind of fate.

You getting more and more supersitious. While, I noe im wrong by doing this. I dunno it is consider do this to let u feel how i feel or just wanna to make you angry only. I started to go out ppl and ingore your feeling. I find it outside life is actually feel good which is when im young I dun even got it. Perharps we are together since very young, and dun really hav tat kind of life which ppl hav while we dun hav. No matter wat, u still hav a group of good friends which can talk to you. As for mi, all my friends come and go. And of coz some are afriad of u. U scare all my friends aways.

Remember there's once you said wanna go to West side to fetch your friend to east. Which is I think why should u do tat, he cant just come himself mah. Tat time I was really very sick, and wish you are around with me. That the moments I will feel warm. But, you choose to go out without letting me knowing. When I wake up, I cant locate you. No one was at home there for me too and I was terrible sick. Been keep on calling and calling you but you neva pick up the call. Suddenly, you called me back and saying you are at the hospital. I was like a mad woman worry abt your safety. At the point, I was thinkin, if you like tat left me, wat will be happen to my kids and mi. We cant live without u. The time when u was in hospital, I really got no mood to do any, just wanna get to see u asap. As long as I noe u are safe. Willing to take care of you for all my life even if one day I hav to do so. Dear, do you noe u mean alot to me? You cant hav any accident b4 mi. As you noe, I wont be living long. .

Alright, todaz's story will be till this. Today Im taking half a day to settled our love nest fengshui. Hopefully it's work. No doubt it is exp but dear, as long as you willing to give me a chance and come back to me. I promise we will stay together till we are old. And I will find this kind of money are worth it.

Regards,
ShiQi