Day 51

Todaz is New Year eve. I dun intend to go out eventually. Just wanna to ac-company kids at home since I've already out on Christmas's eve. Cousin William actually asked me out for a drink, he rather dun wish me to stay at home think others. but I refused and rejected him. Enjoy yourself ba.

I just having dinner outside and went to in law house to fetch kids. I reached there is abt 9 plus. Before that, I send an sms to dear asking him whether can we arranged to have lunch tml, at the same time, we have to finalise our issue, cant drag anymore. I am just like living dunno wat, blur blur. .

Less den 5 mins, he gave me a call. Surprisely and shock. I answered. He was mentioned lunch he may afriad he cant coz he is working. Why not dinner? I said sure. I shall wait for him since afternoon I will be bring kids to go and buy their school bags and shoes and others etc. . I asked, how can u work late today and den tml still got to work morning shift? He said no choice becoz of New Year eve. We shall put down the phone.

** Wish dear dear Happy New Year, Bless him successful in wat he did. I love u!!

Was quite happy den when he is agreed to have dinner with me. That nitz, I slept well, at the same time, ac-company kids to watch tv altot they would like to go Vivo and see those artise but I'm tell them no point coz u wont be able to view them directly. Well, They felt sad but im telling them, watching at home will be more comfort.

Den, ding ding ding. . Happy New year to all. . We den fall asleep le. . Good nitz, sweet dream!!

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 50

A bit tire todaz . . Dunno why . . Sigh !!

Missing hubby, dunno wat he is doing now. . Ytd nitz he called me at 9pm saying will be bring kids home at at 9plus. . But disappointed, he called me again at about 10plus saying too late liao, why not let the kids stay at mama's house tonitz. . Sigh!! Alright den. . I was so lonely last nitz without them.

I just sms to him, quite happy tat he has replied my sms for more den 3 times. He used not to do tat instead. . Should I ask him to come over tonitz mah?? I scare he will rejected me again.

Im still waiting for his answer should we patch back together again mah? I really missed the times when we are happily together. I dunno how to appreciate and let dear walk away from me. . I will try my very best to gain him back again . .No matter wat, dear, u are my only love in my whole left. . P.S I LOVE U HUBBY!!

I've send email to Fal for the photoshoot, hope he can reply me asap so tat I can start my photoshoot fast. Cant wait for the time to come. .

Im waiting for kids, of coz my dear too . . To come back. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 49

Todaz is dear de off daz and yet I dunno sia . . I think me really gonna lost count of his schedule le. .

Dear bring kids out. . He bring them out to buy remindings books . . After tat son son go for swimming with his friends. .


Den in afternoon, dear sms me tat he wanna to borrow redtimo out. . Hm. . alright den but den where he wanna go sia. . He wanna to tear coupon again mah?? I've called mei mei after off duty, but she is not around. . Den I called dear's hp and they said they going for swimming . . Sigh. . Should tell me early den I wont be worry de mah. . :(

I sms dear asking him to come over when bring kids over coz I need to talk to him . .No reply. . Dunno he will come mah. . I will get nervous when I seeing him . . Dunno the way I talk will scare him again mah . .

Im eating instant noodle again. . Kids are not around, no feel to eat others too . .

Im being trying to take personal portfillo of myself. . We only young once . . I wish to take a memory of my young look. . But only this Whitelink attracted me . . But cost $388 for 4R X 16 into a album. . Does it too costly?? But den others like only one or 2 pcs is already cost about 100 plus le. .

How le?? Should I take tat $388 de package mah?? Sigh. . If dear is here with me den I wont be tat headache liao. .

Wish to see dear dear. . But. . Will he come over mah?? Dear dear . . I miss u. .

Regards,
Shi Qi

Day 48

Sigh. . I didnt got a chance to talk to him last nitz as he is telling me tat last min he need to go for work *cry*


He is only here to settle some cheques signature tat I need him to sign, he took away his comic books and ciao le. . Why like tat?? Hard to get a chance to talk to him. .


He didnt have time to eat the steamboat. . *cry* but he did took the barley tat I brew myself along. . Hope he will drink it. . Me purposly brew for him le. .

Todaz neva went out, tire. . sms dear here for dinner but sad tat he didnt replied. . *cry*

Son son called him and he said he got to work late tonitz. . Well, no choice we got to eat up all the foods. . so full sia..

Todaz is day 48 le. . Soon going to 2 months liao . . Wonder how long should I hav to wait. .

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 47

Todaz I've arranged Tom Yam steamboat at home. I sms dear to come over and hav it. Hope he is not rejected me. He neva reply me. .

In the morning, I bought breakfast for kids. Den wash and hang clothes. . Blog a while den bath. Out to Seng Siong to bought steamboat ingredients. .

Saw 2nd ah yi (dear de ah yi) at there. . Chat a while den proceed my shopping list. Send son son to buy games too..

Back home, I'll asked son son to sms dear whether he wanna to take any rice. But he neva reply. *cry* Son son called to him and check it out. . He said dun wan and will only be here at abt 8pm plus. . Im waiting for you dear . . He wan us to take our dinner first and dun wait for him. .

At least, I got hope to see and talk to him todaz. . *hapi* Wish me all the best ya. . I hope I can convince him todaz and touched him. . I hope he willing to give me a chance to stay with him foreva. . This is is for sure, I wont leaving u foreva. .

Wish me good luck!! And Yes, I'm still waiting for him. .

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 46

Last nitz, I phoned up to dear tat Im going to bring son son to ICA to endors his passport. However, dear sound like dun really believe in me. . *cry* Dear, I wont do any bad thingy to u and our family de. . believe me hao mah. .

This morning when we woke up, son son make a call to him, den he said he go mama's house to check. After tat he gave me a called saying he cant located their original BC, might kept in office, only can provided me photocopied one. Sigh, no choice got to try it out den.

I bring them back home to take the BC and mei mei de ezlink. Dear does not look happy, neva talk to me too. . While we waiting at the bus stop and he ride passed us also not bother to give us a look. . *cry*

Lucky, they allow me to do the endorsement. And I gonna do the renewal for my passport as its gonna to be expire on 28 Jun 09. Siong Siong Siong. . Everythingy need $$ when Im poor enough. .

Den, I bring the kids to Tampines to watch show called Bedtime stories. Quite nice show since it is son son who suggested. We enjoy ourselves. . Den we went for dinner... Sigh, wallet empty again and gonna draw more $$ . . As long as the kids are happy. . I willing to cut down my expenses den.

Happened to see redtimo are being trapped. . By the contractor. . *sad* No one was there to help me, I got to pull tat stupid heavy metal myself and carry those one big bag of sand. . They wanna closed the area and yet neva inform in advance tat they will close it so tat we can shift our ride. .

At home, mei mei and son son was telling me that on christmas eve daddy ever told them this. " In future dun tell me anymore abt your mummy how poor she is or how is she. I dun wanna to noe any abt her. She only noe how to enjoy and neva bring kids home" ** Dear, I neva out to play, i am doing something meaningful thingy. .

Wat happen dear?? Am I making you angry again?? Mei mei still telling me tat one day, mum as in dear's mum told mei mei tat, if mei mei was following me and she gonna to be in deep shit.

I dunno wat happen to them recently, wat did I do wrong?? Suddently treat me as an outsider. *cry* How and wat should I do to make them convincing?? Sigh. .

I sms to dear late nitz asking him to meet and talk tml. . Hope we can talk thingy round and remains as last time happily. . Dear, I wont make u unhappy again. . U got any worry, let mi noe so tat I can help you. This is wat husband and wife right?? I really love u so much. . Dear. .

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 45

Finally I got the Fengshui lamp. . Nitz time I could light up the lamp le. . U might be finding me doing such a foolish thingy again. . But, no matter wat, all I can do for my darling to come back, I will do it. . Even die. . Love u till I die. .

Todaz is day 45 and is christmas day too. Just wonder, if I purposely neva bring the kids back home, will dear not happy mah? If he is not happy, meaning he is still care of me right??

Todaz, I've learned many thingy from nyonya culture. It is interested me very much. I've learned alots of how last time woman could actually do for their husband. And no matter how much they are suffering, their heart is always with their husband ** Dear, Im not out to play ok. Im trying to learn more thingy of how to care of u, being a good wife tat I used not to. I've ate a few of Nyonya foods too. . Will be attached the pix. U must be wondered again this is my dear and my blog le. How come become food blog liao. . Keke.. Coz I felt proud when I learn so much thingy. .

I bring kids back home tonight. Neva see dear at home but den I will still address mum and dad. No matter how they treat me, they still my elder. . But as for Alan, she dun really look too happy to see me. . And Ming Ming, he dun even wan to address me. *cry*

Den, I play with the kids the whole nitz until slp . . haha. .

This is where nyonya or baba ppl staying (meaning rich ppl)

Neva see such a big pineapple tart b4

Nyonya foods tat I've taken such like laksa, ayam and babi poteh, otah, Sambal prawn with potei and curry(dunno wat tat called, there's a name for the curry)

This is the Kamcheng (Such a nice pot) And why it is called Kamcheong? Meaning it is refering to Relationship in Hokkien. During Wedding day, the pot must filled with dumpling balls with Red and White. Red symbolizes jubilation and Whire symbolizes purity. The love you share will neva change. Just like my hubby and me. *wink*

Regards,

ShiQi

Day 44

Today is day 44. . Wish Dear dear Merry Christmas and the best wish he have for coming year.

I felt so bored and lonely for christmas nitz. Kids and hubby are not with me during the eve. So sad. .

Todaz is the day the bring down the broom . . And indeed, today is the 21st day le. . but, hubby is not back home . . Are u lonely too dear??

Friends and cousin jio me out for gathering, but somehow no feel to do so. . I go and bought another fengshui lamp again for the nitz. . Hope the fengshui lamp can keep me company. .

Another sad thingy is todaz is also my good boss last day in the company. Hold a farewell for her. . Wanted to cry out during the farewell. . But, must control. . Can see boss's tear are nearly coming out too. . She got the same faith as me. The only thing is she dun hav the kids and her ex-hubby is still staying with her till now. Think tat is the most blessing thingy for her even tot they had already divorced.

Merry Christmas for everyone. . Wish everyone are enjoying for the eve. .

Below is the farewell pix. . I noe this is only belong to me and dear's blog. But inside got me mah. . :p

Me and XMH

GL Team pix

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 43

Todaz, Im still angry of wat happened ytd when I woke up.

Kids offen told me the same ans wheneva I've asked them to ask their daddy thingy. . So sian of tat. .

I make breakfast for dear but, he neva eat . . *cry*

Tml is christmas eve, wonder can we actually having dinner together mah? But, kids said he refuse to reply. . Sian again. . I dun wish to spend christmas eve alone. . Dear, will u??

Regards,
ShiQi

Day 42

Todaz is day 42. Friends keep on asking and asking me when am I going to settle mt stuffs with hubby. . I cant drag for so long and it is unfair to me. . But wat can I do when hubby dun wanna talk to me?

Wonder wat he is doing for the whole daz. Kids are not going home todaz and asking my sister to come over. Im afraid tat her kids will spoilt my thingy and indeed, the gal spoilt my fengshui lamp. Sigh. .

When I came back home, I saw the whole house was super dirty sia. . Make me so angry. But wat to do? I've to clean it. Haiz..

Until now den I'm free. . After tat, I got to wrap son son de new books. .

I wanted hubby to buy a tv cable but so far, nothing was done. I need him to do the telephone cable. . And also nothing was done. . Yet Im paying the bill for nothing . .

Kids also very disappointed me, no matter how I teach them, it seen like they still behave the sane. . Really felt like wanna give up. . Im afraid I can't hang on anymore. .

Regards,
ShiQi