Day 180

Really very long times neva blog le.. Well, life is still the same. Father had given me a deep shit. His vehicle loan neva make any payment to bank and the bank come and threaten me that if Im not going to pay on behalf, they are going to sue me as well and cancel my credit card. WTF!!

Well, lucky hubby was there for me when this shit going to me. Altot he didnt help me in my financial. . But he gave me support there.

I got to borrow money from my good friends in Moduslink. Lucky me managed to talk to bank to let me had it repayment between in a year.

Im leaving Billyhouse soon. Very tire working over there. . Very stress as well. . I got a new job and will start on 18 May 09.

Recently not really very happy. Hubby went to Vietnam on Thur (07 May 09) Im taking leave and wanna to send him to Airport. However, hubby gave me such a comments that he felt that he was being spy by me. WTF!! He really make me down on that day and dun appreciate at all. I really very disappointed and sad of how he being treating me. He said since that day I go to Vivo and looked for him, he got that kind of feeling.

He dun even want me to go in together with him. Can I asked, anyone here and ever leave his wife and family and he can went for the trip like tat?? That friend of us, I dun really like him, becoz all the while since we are young etc 13 yrs old, he was being lie to me, teaching my hubby bad things. Why we were always involve in him, we were always quarrelled becoz of him. When he can go out of the sight from us??

Well, was very lonely during weekend, and still got to work. . Stupid event..

Kids were also disappointed me in their attitude as well. . :(

I felt that everyone were look down on me. Given me such a stupid attitude.

Today, hubby was back to singapore. I should felt happy, but somehow I dunno why, I'm not. I got plenty of things to tell hubby, but dunno why again, I scare to hurt his feeling, how I really wish to tell him my feeling of him.

I asked my hubby a few times, "Am I still your wife??" He refused to ans me. Meaning?? If not, why he wanna tell me that he wanna to shift house la, planning for future la. . What is he thinking of?

Tire, dun wish to talk anymore. I went home alone without kids. Wanna to stay alone myself for today, or maybe for these few days too. .

Regards,

Shi Qi