Day 39

Today is day 39. And was son son's going to new school for reporting.

Dear wait for us downstair, and askin me am I going along too. I've told him yes and I will just tag along awhile.

Dear wants to drive redtimo there, hm. . I asked why need to drive while the school is so near us and I've no more coupon le. Dear said he wants to go and buy things and he need the car. He got the coupon there. I'm asking him to go and pump the air for the tyres if he has time, he said okie and asked should he pump petrol too? I said dun need la coz I dun want him to spend money on redtimo. Rather let ppl talk bad thingy abt me again.

We went for breakfast den. I neva make dear paid for the breakfast again coz I dun want to let him had tat feel I'm still using his money.

Den we proceed to school. After registered, we just get to buy books and uniform. Books they can only be able to collect at later part. He bought drink and asking me to share with mei mei. But I refuse to take it. No doubt Im happy but somehow, I dun wish him to spend money on me.

Time passed fast, all are settled and Im going to proceed to work. I take my bag and wanna to walk out and take bus. However, he wanted to send me to work. Happy!! But den, I told him I've forgotten to get somethingy and I'll need to go home and collect it. He den send me home, at the same time, dear asked son son to bring down their roller brake. sigh... They going out without me again. :(

Den I'm off to work. They neva called me all the while until after mi having company's lunch at Marine Mandarin Hotel while shopping time at Marine Square, I gave son son a call. Asking him has he collected his books? He said tomorrow den collect. And I asked where are they now? He said at bedok buying foods. I guess is for mum's de birthday celebration. Im really very sad this time round they really forget about me and go ahead for the celebration.

All the day was like no mood in everythingy I do. We den went to Clarke Quay to have some finger foods as we cant really can eat anymore, esp me while some of them are felt hungry. After that we proceed for drink. I am not in a good mood and gonna drunk again. Vomit somemore. Felt super terrible. Some how I would think that if dear are by my side now, today will be my most happy daz after so many patient wait.

I felt Im lonely for the nitz. No one was there for me when I need them. I started to cry in the middle of the nitz. When can I really can walk out of the shadow again??

Regards,
ShiQi