Day 34

Today is hubby left home of 34 dayz.

This morning he is coming back while all of us are sleeping sound. He came back to took his sport shoes and grove. Coz he mentioned that he is taken his 2A bike licence.

Hope he can successful passed it smoothly.

Disappointed tat I noe someone is coming into the house, but I dun hav the gut to wake up and talk to him. Sori dear. .I really miss u alot but I dunno why dare not seeing you. I only can stare at him by a small hole of my door and looking at him wearing his sock outside the house. Poor thing, why wanna sit on the floor, so dirty sia..

At abt 1plus, he gave me a call and wanna to drive redtimo out. Coz it is raining heavily and he need it for work.

Dear, of coz I will tell u u may used it. Redtimo is our lovely car. . U dun hav to inform me.. Just use it anytime anyday u like.

A friend was telling me last nitz, dun becoz of a tree and put down everything. . There's will be alot of trees outside who are waiting for me. Just example: wat he felt is pamper, treated me like a princess, show me with all the love soul and care and of coz concern that I've last lost. He want me to be happy foreva from now. Tats really touch me. But, im telling him tat. I am still love my hubby, very much. He come back home, I will be the most happy one, and tat is the only thing can make me happy foreva from now on. I hang the ring on my neck tat hubby gave to me is becoz tat is the nearest place to my heart. Hubby is the only person still stand a larger place in my heart. And of coz Im telling him tat hope my words wont be hurting him.

He was only get to reply my sms this morning. I guess he indeed not feeling well.

He was replyed he is hurt, really very hurt. But it is ok. That is the gal he like. Coz if Im telling him tat if I dun love my hubby tat much, den he gonna disappointed. He was mentioned that he noe where he stand in my life. Hubby and me have been together for more den 15 years since we are young. He is hurt but happy. He asked me not to worry abt him. It is his choice. And he just wanna to ask, even if hubby outside has a gal den he come back, Will I still be able to accept him??

Well, tat did cross my mind. I've tot abt it long ago. Im very firm to telling him tat YES. He will be forgiven just like he'd forgiven me b4 and as long as he wont be contacting that gal anymore. I will still be loving him with all my life. I will forgive and forget everything in the past and start all over afresh with hubby again.

He was hurt but happy to noe wat im facing and going to look forward my future life. He was saying ok, hope my hubby can change and come back to me one even day. However, he will be always there as friend when I need someone for comfort.

I was telling him, I dun wish to think negative of my hubby tat he is having affair outside. He said well, mayb he is wrong to give tat assume. I asked him to get back to his own life again. And he saying he hav his own life. He noe how to handle it. But he just wan to be my shou hu shen and take care of me. I can dun like him, but I cant stop him from taking care of me.

Tats really sound touching if Im other gals. But my heart and mind is only my hubby tat is Jack Tan Chih Chiang. He is my only and foreva love till the end of my life.

Times really flew fast. . Im waiting patiently for dear to come back home and together with us again. Hoping he can see my changed and change his mind again. .

Dear, I will be always there for u. . Love u foreva...

Regards,
ShiQi